Charlotte Gai Mair


Biography


TERRA FIRMA

Sun shine on me, moon wash my face by night?
Let the day be a day, I mean, a real day, where I can feel alive
Oh so many rain clouds have cast their shadows, yet I smell the dust
Surely by now __ I must be leather?
A walking dead

Hello, face in the mirror
I must say, your eyes throw a scare, when I study their gaze
Fear is what I see, timidity __ a fear of being hurt
If I should let myself venture outside once more,
Where will it take me? To hell on earth?

Run, and run far away
Safety lay in the hills of forbidden canyons,
Just over the ridge of sanity
Yes, you heard it right __ sanity!
Let them all think insanity has found you and they will leave
Funny how that is __ fearful words of losing ones mind

I am a tree chopped down, bark removed,
scarred by fires of the forest
Beaten, till my pulp has been removed, dying on my feet
Standing steadfast, in the heart of terra firma
Cutworms eat at my roots, working hard to bring me down
Count the rings, and see that they are relatively few
Weather and gale force winds, have caused roots to fan
     plunging, still deeper to some not called for abyss

There is no magic potion, no words
Life will do what it bloody well pleases and when it chooses
Control is not in our hands, at least it’s not in mine
I wouldn’t care nor dare to say I understand life and it’s meaning
It is, what it is for however long it may be

And I am here and you are here on the banks of some unknown river
Where you paused to read this poem
I just pray the sun and the moon,
    will throw some light on these withering branches
      __ some time.



HALLELUJAH & AMEN

We build a steeple, set towards heaven
But is the heart in honesty, directed to do the same?
I wonder and I wonder and I wander amidst the lonely hearted
And it makes me weep

GOD wishes for HIS ones to love one another as He loves THEM
And oh, it must grieve HIS heart to watch HIS lost sheep stand ignored!
Yet, these lost ones hold no grudge against their brothers and sisters
But with all this brother has not got, still he finds it in his heart to give
Never speaking of his own misery, only listening to others

GOD smiles on this lonely and saddened soul, who carries on alone and struggles
For he truly, with all his heart ... practices the WORD of THE FATHER
And I pray for strength and GOD'S grace to help me understand a Christian
But condemnation is not mine and I am not fit to judge
Only do I make note __ and wonder
Knowing that GOD waits through the narrow path
AMEN and So Be It.



FADING IN THE SHADOWS

Fading in the shadows; there you are
Watching helplessly from afar I bow my head
Oh, this infernal rain! Will it ever stop!
There are no guarantees on the life-cycle of love
And many are the words authored, as to what makes it fade

But sadness blooms eternal, in this garden’s heart
And I remain as frozen; within these dense walls,
        these "feelings


 

ANT

Heat of summer finds me at garden’s side
Oh, so bright and searing heat of 100 degrees

Scurrying along is mister ant, so intent in his journey
So strange in the way he plots his path, "I wonder why?"
And all his brothers follow on this same odd path
And without pause
As if they know the secrets of the universe
And must hurry to fill their coffers for the rainy days,

An Armageddon fast approaching
"Very organized little creatures" I say to myself
"Maybe they are all fanatics, do you think?
A smile runs cross my face
Where will this imagination lead me?

My eyes sting from a droplet of perspiration
to wake me from my dreamy state
But still the ants warn me as they warned the grasshopper
To be aware, remain awake
For the smallest creature is not inconsequential
It even holds a worthwhile lesson to heed


All Copyright © Charlotte Gai Mair - 2007
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